Hi it's me

I ran away from home a lot as a young teen. I hung out with a crowd of kids like me who used drugs and alcohol. I had a lot of anger that i didn't really face as a result it pushed people away and i used it as my protection from being hurt.

My father didn't respect my mother he cheated on her and me as his child he betrayed his

family, As a kid I wanted to be a hairdresser I use to cut my brothers hair and neighborhood kids, plus my dolls hair, it was in my blood.I wanted to go to the tech school about an hour away from my home to be a hairdresser I was still to young to go to cosmetology but i would take fashion design first just to wait to get in hair school. My parents did not want me to go, they said it was for troubled kids and wanted more for me, I mean they really didn't

see me in the true light of day it's like look at me I'm in trouble and acting out like help!!

So i planned to get myself thrown out of high school and it sorta worked i was able to shadow the school see if i liked it for a few weeks and the following year I started the Tech YAH!

The summer of 8th grade : School was out for summer. I was emotionally delayed in boy girl relationships I mostly kept to myself i did have a best friend Laurie boys started liking me and her and i was just going along because thats whats your supposed to do, k.i.s.s.i.n.g

My dads drinking was getting worse I liked playing sports BasketBall,Soccer,and Loved Tap and Jazz, then one day out of the blue my mom tells me i can't take Tap or Jazz any more they can't afford it . I cried i really loved that above anything else but it was what it was I adjusted and excepted it because I had to.I started smoking pot and i really enjoyed Hash,

i would steel money from my parents change jug and but a nickel bag or dime bag I learned how to roll joints but i liked my pipe the best, I think I smoked everyday. I still didn't like rules and ran away a lot that summer.

My mom asks me if i would like to take tap and jazz again but time had passed and i liked my new life of drugs and alcohol so i thought your too late to myself ,but just said no thanks .

I had fear about going back to dancing after being away for so long .I had found something

better than that now.

I started having crushes on boys and going to house parties,dancing having fun my mom drove me and my friends she said we could hold a beer to look cool. and then she would pick us up they were only crushes nothing really ever came of them and i just lived my life not really ever caring about being in a relationship after all i was young in my early teens.

I was a late bloomer I didn't get my period until 8th grade summer i was 15 , i stayed back in first grade if you were doing the math.